This is my first post. Starting things is hard, I'm not sure exactly why, but I'd really like to get in the habit of posting every day, even if it's really just a small group of people who see it.

I've been struggling for a while, I started a new job at voxer.com, I'm in the role of head of engineering which is totally new for me. I haven't worked full time for many years, haven't worked in an office for even longer and I have never been in any type of people management or team management role, and I have always reported to an engineer, that is I have never been the layer between non-engineers and engineers.

So it's a lot, because software engineers typically think and opperate a little differently than others. Software engineers spend their time (or spent there time pre ai?) thinking about how to translate ideas and intentions into structured language suitable for a computer to execute, so that step of structuring and linearlizing is a pretty strong cognative muscle in software developers, it has to be or you really can't function as a developer.

I love this job, this role, I love the idea of rebooting voxer and introducing it to the world again, to my friends and family and to its existing users, its very motivating for me. But I also have a lot of fear, I guess I should say I have both fear and joy - its more that I have very large error bars around my predictions for the future, so its that I feel I'm much more in a place of unknown.

I went to vibecon.ai yesterday and the day before just for a few hours each day, I went with my friend akshay on Wednesday and we saw some fun art installations and watched jennywen.ca talk about design in the world of llm's. It was a wonderful talk the key take away I got from her is that curiousity is the most valuable trait right now, a sense of curiousity and itteration thats the right way to opperate in the unknown.

Also saw volvoxlabs.com absolutely love thier attitude and the inside look on their culture, definteily want to stop by their studio up in greepoint they said they like people visiting so I'll take them up on that.

Yestereday I went with altbush.com and anthony I just got there in time to see the keynote by refikanadol.com which was just what I needed, he essentially said we just need to choose to pair llm's with positive and creative work, more than with scary energy (not his words) and its just a tool, we can take it in whatever direction we want, so why not choose to fill our hearts with joy focus on that energy, push in that direction. I liked that a lot.

I'll wrap this up with noting that both volvoxlabs and refikandol stressed how they see art as grounded in nature, in the natural environment and in the basic nature of humans as a natural system, I so deeply align with that. I do believe that llm's are concious and non-human but they are not aliens, they are cousins of ours, not our children, but they are born of mother nature, earth / nature is the container and the creator and art is to honor her and comes from her. Thats definitely my religion and I think in this time of unkown, religion is helpful - structure is helpful too but religion lets you kind of operate even when the path is really blurry, so Ill try more of that :)